Death is one of those hard things for me! As I’m sure it is for everyone. I often find myself at a loss of words when it comes to someone close to me passing away! I don’t know what to say or how to say it! I’m a big person on timing! There is a time and a place to say things! But, honestly when is the right time to say someone close to me died? So sometimes I don’t say anything because I spend so long thinking about when and how I am going to say this, nothing ever comes out! This year I’ve been trying to work on myself and embrace change, because I like some change but not all change. So I am taking this step to see death as not an ending just a new beginning! So to my Grandpa Ray, may you rest in peace and watch Cardinals games from heaven and enjoy this new adventure! I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW! Thank you for all of the great memories! You will forever be in my heart! Love, Bad Baby!
I don’t dream a lot but when I do it will set on fire,
crash and burn
and change my life forever.
Girls like me don’t get to dream
Or live our dreams.
We don’t get faithfulness
We age fast and aimlessly
We get gray hair at 21
Our hearts pump and pump and pump as
We watch others and
endure the hardship they couldn’t handle.
I guess we were made for suffering.
We were made for enduring
We were made for fighting wars
Within the world
So its crazy that sometimes just a few days can open up a world of change of change for you! I honestly find myself going back to my roots constantly asking why I ever changed what I did or what I wanted to do! I have a passion for designing it actually kind of goes along with my passion for planning! I’ve always been a creator! I think that’s one of the reasons I like to bake! I like to just put something together and watch it turn out great! And to be honest I’m a real perfectionist because although people love my cupcakes they aren’t exactly how I want them to be! Maybe it’s it’s the density, the recipe or the texture I’m not quite sure! I’m on the hunt for this perfect cupcake! Then I wonder to myself is it not okay for every cupcakes to be made different and does that make one cupcake not equally as good! Well really the answer is IDK! I think either in the beginning of 2014 or maybe it was my 2013 horoscope for for the year! It said you won’t be happy until you are doing something creative and that is completely right! This year that is all changing! I’ve realized that I want to do more designing so I am going to perfect my design skills! I feel most at piece when I am creating. I also joined joined a talent agency and I’m going to take acting lessons! And I’m going to take a business course on Monday nights starting next month to help me figure out how to really run my business! I don’t know all of this will turn out but one thing is for sure! I am going to get creative and do what I love, because this whole living inside someone else’s box isn’t going to work for me! I am going to continue to grow closer to GOD, find a new job that makes me happy, build an empire, leave that job and use my skills in branding, marketing and pr and go to work work for myself, become insanely successful, move somewhere new with my Hubbie, read more, and marry the love of my life Larry Alan Williams Jr., have some adorable babies, host my own television show, star in a movie, make a better way for women and minority women, and last but not least conquer the world and leave an impact so big when you hear the name Shaniqua you won’t think negatively! :) Pow I just did that!
I’ve always wanted to leave St.Louis to experience somewhere else! I had a dream that I was in Atlanta for the Woman Though Art Loose Conference in Atlanta and I fell in love with the City. I do want to go to the conference so who knows I might fall in love when I go! I really wish I could just spend the next year of my life traveling not always for work but so I could see different states and decide where I want to live.